Tuesday, 11 March 2014

52 Lists / Ten

Joining in with Ema at Made In Hunters and her 52 Lists project.

This week: List the ways you can love yourself more

Do what makes me happy

Don't be so tough on myself to be/do everything all of the time

Do what keeps me healthy

Don't be a perfectionist about everything

Do make time to be with others

Don't worry about every single detail of life, including those I have no control over

Once again I write this post a week late. Sadly I didn't get better from the pneumonia and ended up in hospital last week for a day and a half so I could be given intravenous antibiotics, numerous drips and lots of oxygen as my levels were extremely low. I also kept being called tachycardic which made me chuckle as it's the sort of medical word that they're always throwing around in Casualty. Thankfully I only had to stay one night in hospital and was dispatched home with lots of horse-pill-type antibiotics and instructions to have yet another week at home, getting lots of rest but also 'pottering' to stretch and clear my lungs. 

I am hoping to go back to work tomorrow (after a month's absence) for a short week and gentle return to teaching. School have been amazing, so supportive and lots of instructions just to rest and not worry about what was going on there. I just hope the children remember who I am - and I remember all their names.

When I was thinking about loving myself more, I started to think about the need to look after myself better. I'm generally a healthy eater, take extra vitamins and don't have too many late nights but clearly something was lacking for me to end up so unwell for such a lengthy period of time. 

January was a hard month to get through. I seemed to work non-stop 13 hour days and at the weekends I was either working or flopping out on the sofa. There were few lighter moments and little time spent with loved ones enjoying each other's company. On reflection, from the start of the year until I got ill, the only places I had been were home, my parent's house, school, the supermarket, the butchers, two ballroom dancing lessons - not exactly a lengthy or exciting list.

I suppose I'm always constantly striving to make time for me, certainly it was key to my goals for the year, but this illness has been even more of a wake up call to find a better balance and make sure my mind is not stressfully worrying and my body is not flat-out working all of the time.

Perhaps it really is about time I adopt and try to live by one of my Nana's favourite phrases: 'Que Sera Sera'; remember what my Mum is always telling me "Good is usually good enough" and show that I love myself more by not being so tough on myself and making time for happy things.


  1. Oh gosh,it certainly went from bad to worse for you. Good to hear you really are on the mend now and yes, as the saying goes, you've got to look after number one 'cos no-one else will. Take care.

  2. So sorry to hear about your hospital stay, but glad to hear that you're on the mend now. Making time for yourself is so important, so I hope you find a good balance soon. Xx

  3. Glad to hear you're finally on the mend, you have had it tough. Yes, I think a lot of us need to be 'kinder' to ourselves this year. x

  4. I'm sorry to hear you've been so ill - glad you are feeling better now though. Hopefully this will help you sort out the right balance in life.

  5. I had no idea you ended up in the hospital! I am sorry you have had such a rough go of it :( This is a great list, with very good reminders. I think stress is enemy number one, not only emotionally, but physically too. Letting go of the things you have no control over is a lesson I need to learn too - sigh. With Spring almost here, I hope that you find good health and many happy little moments!

  6. I'm just catching up with your blog (I'm SO behind with all my blog reading!) and I'm so sorry to hear you've been ill. And glad to hear from more recent posts that you seem to be feeling much better now. I once lost a whole January to shingles and although it wasn't as severe as your pneumonia sounds it was still a pretty miserable start to the year. Things can only get better!

  7. Thank you for all your get well messages. Now a month on, I'm certainly feeling much better than I was but still getting tired and feel exhausted after lots of walking - I had to have a sleep after a couple of hours shopping and tea with a friend this week. Don't even think about asking me to run for a bus either! I've tried exploring 'recovering from pneumonia on the internet and can't really find anything other than it saying it will take time. Mr P says there's nothing about it online because 'most people die' - nice! I've got used to his comments now: when I was first diagnosed he kept saying 'Count yourself lucky: 100 years ago we'd be arranging your funeral'. I suppose I just have to smile and humour him! x